ummm... eek?

So, I have an interview today.  An interview that REALLY matters to me... more than any of the others I've had this year...And I'm terrified that I'm going to do something to F it up.  Which begs the question... why do I do this to myself?  See, intellectually, I know that I can do this.  I've BEEN doing this for 10 years... TEN YEARS!!! And in addition to all the getting ready for school business that I had to take care of this week (classes started this past Monday) I've also spent the week planning for this interview.  I have to do a 10 minute lecture demo, a 10 minute online assignment walk-through, and then the interview itself. I have my PowerPoint on Fused sentences all ready, it's even been proofread by two of my colleagues, and I've completely revamped the Lesson 8 info in my online class.  And this is my 3rd interview of the year, so really, I KNOW that I can do this...

But OMG I WANT MY MOMMY!!!!!!  I know, part of the problem right now is that I don't even need to leave here for another 45 minutes... I'm showered, hair's washed, outfit is planned... still have makeup and stuff, but by this point in my life, that takes AT MOST 5 minutes.... So what do I have left to do? Freak myself the F out.... that's it.... Plus, this is the campus where I've been an adjunct for 5 years, it's just up the road from my house, it's beautiful, the people are awesome and I SOOOOOOOOOO want to work there.  It's home... The other three interviews--two were for campuses I'd never been to, and the other is my second home, but it's 45 minutes to an hour away from me... Really, that's its only detraction....

I'm an adjunct.  What that means, in a nutshell, is that I do GREAT HEAPING GOBS of work for very little money.  But I love it. In fact, I don't think you really stay the type of adjunct I am for long if you don't absolutely LOVE teaching...  Cuz, really, it's a thankless job.  No bennies AT ALL, and you're not "guaranteed" classes each session (although that's not usually too much of a problem--adjuncts outnumber full-timers, and there's usually more than enough students to go around...) And I've been doing this for 10 years... for two colleges.... Yeah, I'm a little crazy...

But now I have a chance for all that to change, and I just HOPE and PRAY that I don't screw it up royally! So, you know. eek!!!!

RLW